The Stuff They Don't Tell You...

Or do they and was I just not listening? When I say "they" I am referring to all my friends and family who have been pregnant in the past and by "stuff' I mean the not so joyous aspects of being pregnant. Now don't get me wrong, I have been through hell and back to get here (10 weeks 4 days pregnant with twins!) but I had no idea being pregnant would change my life. I thought it all changed once they were born and I had at least 9 months to prepare. Boy was I wrong. In no way am I wanting to come across as complaining because I know so many people who would give anything to be feeling as crappy as I am right now with two buns in the oven, but I am in such shock at all of this "stuff" that I had to write about it.

I have experienced several of my family members and close friends go through some very difficult pregnancies and I did always feel very sympathetic to their sickness, pains and issues but I don't think you can truly "get it" until it happens to you.


Morning Sickness. Whoever named it this obviously never experienced it because if she did she would know that it is really all day and all night sickness. I used to hear this term and think: okay so I may potentially only be sick in the morning, maybe throw up a few times and then get on with my day. I NEVER imagined to feel like I am on a Catamaran in the BVI in January with 8 foot swells ALL afternoon and ALL evening. The mornings are actually my best time (as long as I have enough food in me that is...)

Food. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I'd be eating 8 to 10 meals a day. This is no exageration at all! If I don't eat every 2 hours on the dot fahgetta bout it! It's all over for me! And this is not about enjoying eating all those sundaes and other wonderful foods I thought I could get away with when I was pregnant some day. This is about eating for survival!

What makes me cry. What doesn't make me cry? I am not a typical sappy cryer by any stretch when I am no pregnant, but pregnant is a whole different story. Just about anything can bring tears to my eyes and the things that really have gotten the waterworks going lately are: every "congrats you're prego" card I recieved (lots of tears, I received a lot of cards), reading my weekly updates on what is developing with the babies, songs on the radio, especially the Jack Johnson song "We belong together" It's all over when that one comes on! Oh and let's not forget the pinched nerve shooting up my arm to my neck last night. Cried like the best of 'em from that. And lastly, thinking about my sister and W's wedding and that there will be 2 little ones there to celebrate with all of us (tearing up right now just thinking about it again!)

What makes me laugh. When my husband calls me out for being cranky and mean I seem to burst into uncontrollable laughter. Strange....

What I am grateful for. An amazing husband and wonderful supportive friends and family. Our struggle has not been an easy one and a good friend once told me that you will find out who your true friends are when you go through this and I certainly did. Lucky for me I have the most amazing group of friends who supported me and understood I had to do my own thing for a while and that my struggles had absolutely nothing to do with them.

To every one reading this that has been pregnant and is a mom : HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! This whole experience already has given this holiday an entire new meaning to me!